I like to cross things off my to-do list. I use tear-off notepads and make lists and lists of what needs to get done today and in the coming days. My lists include unwanted tasks as well as life-giving ones. Then I set to work to accomplish them and cross them off. Done. Finished. Wrapped up. Nice and neat. List tossed in the trash. While some of my friends enjoy the process, I find more delight in the completion. Only then can I rest.
Problem is, so much is incomplete right now. Rarely do I ever get to the end of the list. On most days, a few items get carried over to my new list when the old paper is full and needs to be thrown away. Because stuff is never totally done, I live limbo. Waiting for the email answer, for the conference to be over, for the casserole to bake, for the check out line, for….for…for…And so I don’t rest.
I’m not totally a hopeless case. I have learned a lot in the past few years about living presently, appreciating the here and now, noticing what is around me and enjoying the moment. I even have a plaque on my shelf saying:
Live in the moment and make it so beautiful that it is worth rememberingFanny Crosby
So as I try to unearth the unrest in my soul today, I realize that I am believing the myth that I cannot live contentedly while juggling so many balls or waiting to finish a task.
I turn to my study of Abraham and Sarah. Hebrews 11:13 says “These all died in faith without receiving the things promised, but they saw them in the distance and welcomed them and acknowledged that they were strangers and foreigners on the earth.”
Talk about an unfinished task that never got crossed of their list! So how do I reframe this unsettledness? I keep reading in Hebrews.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, we must get rid of every weight and the sin that clings so closely, and run with endurance the race set out for us, keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of our faith. For the joy set out for him he endured the cross, disregarding its shame, and has taken his seat at the right hand of the throne of God. Think of him who endured such opposition against himself by sinners, so that you may not grow weary in your souls and give up.Hebrews 12:1–3 NIV
Sometimes, God’s message to me is soul care and Sabbath and rest. But today it is perseverance, endurance and running my race. Focus on Jesus, not the lists. Think on his sacrifice and endurance to help me not grow weary and give up. Remember that true rest is found in Jesus and not my completed list.
What is causing your heart to feel unsettled today?
What unfinished task are you waiting on?
How does Jesus’ example of endurance encourage you today?
Jesus, my Savior, thank you that you endured with joy so that I can know true rest in you. I don’t need to strive to accomplish my tasks to gain approval from you or contentment for my soul. You have already given that to me. Teach me to endure in the daily mundane, but also to look with faith toward you.